Tom and Me

What the hell is wrong with me. My best friend Thomas has left to Nebraska for 3 long months. I dont really know why Im upset but I am. I scared he is going to come back proclaiming he has found the woman of his dreams. I dont know why that sets me ablaze. Part of me thinks Im going to lose him when this new girl comes into his life. She will not be good enough for him. My Thomas. Thomas and I have been through alot of junk together and he gets me. He sees past my faults and accepts me for me. I dont want some chick to come in and poop on that. Then I stop to think, I cant be selfish like that. That is not my job anymore. I know I have to let it go and I know I will one day. But not today.