Early morning

This morning was an early one. The kids were up at 5:30 am. Why?!!! As much as I would love for them to sleep in until 8 and have trouble getting them up, the morning was kind of an answer to my prayers. Kendra, Logan and I played with Play Dough for an hour in between bites of breakfast. Which was actually kinda fun. I don't get that much time with Kendra in the morning because we are always rushing to eat and get dresses so we can get to school on time. In fact we had so much time we played, ate breakfast, got dressed and where off to school. The best part was, we arrived on time!

Last night Kendra was so tired and just wanted to go to bed. I laid down with her until she went to sleep. I don't get to do that much anymore. We talked for a little bit about whether or not she wanted us to withdraw from school or not. She went on to tell me that she likes going to school and does want to leave but she also wants to spend more time with me. I know she has to be a little jealous of Logan getting to stay at home all day with me. But she is also smart enough to know that if I were to keep her at home, she couldn't just sit in front of the TV all day. I think that was the kicker. I explained to her that we would pick out a school curriculum for us to use and she would have to do school work. The only difference would be she could do it here at home. She thought it all and decided that she wanted to stay at school.

I think as a mother, I want the absolute best for my babies. What mother doesn't? But as the mother I also have to think rationally about things and not make a big decision based on emotions at the time. As I was dropping off Kendra this morning we were talking about what she would be doing today in class. She loves the Art class that she goes to. She loves going to the library and getting a new book everyday. She is meeting new kids at recess and have new friends.

We will continue to pray for wisdom. This is one of those situations that I wish I could just call GOD on the phone and ask him what to do. That would be so much easier. At the moment, I think he is trying to teach me how to listen for his direction. GOD blessed Kendra with the amazing quality of resistance. I have to take a step back and take a long hard look at the bigger picture. I will continue working on clearing my afternoons so when Kendra comes home she gets one on one attention. I know that will be hard with Logan in the same room but we will make it happen.