World Domination and Goals


I dropped Logan off at School for Little People for his 1st day of Preschool!!! It feels so weird being here at home by myself. I know the kids are doing great but what do I do? That is the question I have been asking myself alot here lately. There are so many things I want to do in and with my life.

I do know for thing that is for sure. I want to be there for my children. I love that I can be readily available for the kids if and when they need me. I was Kendra's homeroom mom last year and I loved it. I signed up to be homeroom mom for Logan's class this year. I like the idea of giving the kids their space while I can still be involved with them during the day. I want to be around them as long as I can before they start to get tired of me. On the flip side, the day is going to come when Im gonna have to branch off on my own.

I have been debating with the idea of having another kid but I dont think my reasons behind that idea are smart. It seems like all my friends are pregnant or having babies. Maybe I should get in on that action. But Im so busy with the two how could I possibly make time for another child?

Ive also been thinking about going back to school. Which is never a bad choice. Just in our situation, I would need a job that would allow me to work the same hours the kids are in school but would pay me enough to make it worth my wild. I am currently one credit away from applying to the nursing program. But whats gonna happen when all is said and done? What are the hours gonna be like? Am I gonna be able to work part time? Will I have help with the kids?

I spoke with my dad this morning. He and I have had a very colorful relationship to say the least. He encourged me to just be a stay at home mom and wife for the time being. He said I should be ok with the idea that the kids are growing up and its ok to take a little time for myself every now and then.

I think he might actually be right on this one.

Bottom line, I want to be the best wife and mother I can be to my family. Right now just might be the time when I have to throw out all the ideas of world domination and just take a little time for myself. Laundry, dirty dishes, dirty bathrooms, breakfast, lunch, dinner and everything else in between that I have the privilage of taking care of will still need my attention.


Thanks dad.